the arbitrary put together

Diary

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 01:33:28 GMT

I wanted to argue. I wanted to discuss. But, I never expected to have this very much heated argument! Waaaa

I used to question God. Now, other people are questioning me! Thought I was prepared. I guess not yet. In any case, I can do this! Waaa I can! I will fight for what I believe in!

So, help me God!

Trying to make a point.

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 04:13:47 GMT

Haha just for fun! May naisip kc ako.

Cge na, please participate! Thanks! n_____n

Trying to make a point.

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 04:02:36 GMT

Haha just for fun! May naisip kasi ako.

Cge na, please participate! Thanks! n________n

Scam: Astoria Raffle Promo

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 10:38:48 GMT

Today, I received a call from somebody from Astoria Plaza. He was looking for my brother (somebody who normally gets a lot of phone calls from so many people and raffle promos). I inquired about his intention and demanded that he just tell me everything he’d like to tell my brother(something i always do to suspicious calls).

And then he went, “…he has been chosen by the company blah blah.. and i want to tell him the good news.” It turned out that my brother did really fill out a raffle stub at Trinoma, during a “car show.”

After a very long prologue i said, “So, what’s the good news? (just tell me quick)” But, he refused to tell. He said he had to talk to my brother directly before he could spill it out. And then i went, “But, I want to know if this is a scam or not (I don’t believe you).” Confidently, he just told me told me to check their website, astoriaplaza.com. He left some contact numbers and his name. But, I was still very doubtful.

Instead of checking their website, I searched for other sources. I found this blog, Pan de Panda: An Astoria Bogus Raffle Winner, and was not surprised by what it said. It’s another “marketing” or “getting-as-many-people-as-possible-to-attend-the-seminar” strategy—deceiving people just to get what they want. Read the blog, so you can see the details. And, beware of “you-are-our-lucky-winner” phone calls. Don’t be fooled.

Suggestion: Change of User id

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 09:30:47 GMT

I sent this message to customer service, they suggest i post it here^^

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I just wish you soon enable members to change their user id's.
People usually get excited the first time they sign up for any new account that they fail to make the best judgment or decision about their PERMANENT ids.
Of course, some may have planned it way before hitting the submit button.
Nevertheless, people change their minds. They change how they look at world or view themselves every now and then. For many users, their ids represent who they are.
I really think you should give them more chance to represent themselves better.
If you're worried about people wanting to change their ids every day or every week or every month, why not just make a restriction? Say, we can only change our id's once every 6 months. Or if you're worried about multiply contacts or friends losing they access to someone's page because they were not informed of the new id, why not make a system that will automatically inform all contacts of the change in id? Or, give grace period, like 1 week after the change of id (which includes the change of url), those who try to reach the page through the old address will automatically be redirected to the site with the new url. Then, there will be a big banner on the page announcing that the website they tried to reach has changed its url.
I really hope you can let us change our ids. I'm sure more people will be happier.
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What do you think?^^

Traditional, Vibrant, and Tasteful

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 16:57:10 GMT

Your result for What Your Taste in Art Says About You Test ...

Traditional, Vibrant, and Tasteful

8 Islamic, -1 Impressionist, -13 Ukiyo-e, -8 Cubist, 0 Abstract and -9 Renaissance!

Islamic art is developed from many sources: Roman, Early Christian, and Byzantine styles were taken over in early Islamic architecture; the architecture and decorative art of pre-Islamic Persia was of paramount significance; Central Asian styles were brought in with various nomadic incursions; and Chinese influences . Islamic art uses many geometical floral or vegetable designs in a repetitive pattern known as arabesque. It is used to symbolize the transcendent, indivisible and infinite nature of Allah.

People that like Islamic art tend to be more traditional people that appreciate keeping patterns that they learned and experienced from their past. It is not to say that they are not innovative personalities, they just do not like to let go of their roots. They like to put new ideas into details and make certain that they will work before sharing them with others. Failure is not something they like to think about because they are more interested in being successful and appreciated for their intelligence. These people can also be or like elaborate things in their life as long as they are tasteful. They tend to prefer geometric patterns and vibrant colors.

Every unexpected change is a miracle. It means God interfered.

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 01:54:08 GMT

This is a result of my contemplation on why things happen to people.
The conflict between freewill and God's plan and purpose for one's life.
The consequences of our actions and God's will.

Do you agree or disagree? I want to know what you think.

a new friend on multiply^^

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 10:57:43 GMT

*smiles*

i just made a new friend today! haha found somebody whom i suspected to be, somehow, like me!

"too many ideas, nothing written" this is what we have something in common. i said i would've written the exact blog she just wrote if she didn't (oh, my statement is also making me dizzy @@ kk^^) it's just a good and funny feeling at the same time to stumble upon a total strange and realize that you have something in common, or a number of things in common: i checked her site and learned that we share the same theme, too! and then i thought, "could it be that we think alike?" "is she like me?" i never really told anyone, but i've been wanting to meet someone who thinks the way i do, or feels the way i do, or reason the way i do. i thought it would be nice to have someone to really understand me. but of course, i'm not expecting her to be all that. im just glad that i met her, even just virtually. im glad to meet a friend who made me realize that yes, i could find that someone i've been looking for--someone like me. im not at all odd! im normal! ha ha i hope to write more because of her. today, she's my motivation.

to my new friend: thanks for the attention! ha ha and thanks for minding to read my blog^^

is there anybody there who's interested in Christianity and philosophy? i want to be your friend! add me up!^^

43 Things

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 07:12:20 GMT

I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out I'm a

Self-Improving Lifelong Learning Self-Knower

You are a Self-Improving Lifelong Learning Self-Knower

0.52% of the 64358 people who have taken this quiz are like you.

When you don't know what to do.

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 10:56:55 GMT

Many times I've felt that I didn't know what to do. No matter how hard I try to analyze the situation or imagine all the possibilities based on my given circumstance, I still can't figure out what the best move is. But today, I came to a rather ingenius resolution. Well, at least for me.

When I don't know what to do, then, I won't do anything.
Thus, it follows:
When I'm not sure how to react, I'd better hold my horses and not do anything.
When I'm not sure about what I feel, I should not make any harsh conclusions about my feelings. The chances are I will only come to a mistaken idea of how I really feel.
When I don't feel I have the right words to say, then keeping my mouth shut is my best option.

I realized, doing nothing is still actually doing something. It is waiting.

It's something so nerve-wracking and suffocatin--dangerous that it could almost kill me, but necessary to keep my sanity and dignity. Doing just the first or last thing that come to my mind is more fatal. I'd rather have cancer which I could fight on through my life than die with a gunshot in 5 minutes.

I'd rather die slowly inside me, without anyone knowing. Fighting my battles and savoring each victory, even quietly. Than sharing my misery and giving myself a quick death of defeat.

I was only talking about doing and not doing. I also wonder why I suddenly shifted to death. Morbid. I don't want to be morbid. I love life.

Jesus loves us. <3

love lives on hope...

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 18:24:29 GMT

love dies when hope is dead.

kill the hope.
kill the love.

hope is dead.

Gravity

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 13:09:05 GMT

by Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

How can I not love you?

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 12:34:16 GMT

by Joy Enriquez

Cannot touch, cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss,
Cannot have each other

Must be strong, and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?

Cannot dream, Cannot share,
Sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel,
Must pretend it's over

Must be brave, and we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?
How can I not love you?

Must be brave, and we must be strong
Cannot say what we've known all along
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?

How can I not love you when you are gone?

another thing i've learned

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 12:05:17 GMT

when we love, we love
but when we stop loving, then we should stop

i used to think that love lasts forever
i never understood why people always told me that love is more than just a feeling
until i discovered it myself

love is a feeling
but when the feeling is gone, there is only commitment
then again, we still have a choice

there is nothing better for people than to be with the person they love
to not want to be with someone you love is a lie
you try to run away from it
but you're involuntarily drawn to it
i say there's no use running
because you're already in chains

i just mean
love what you love
and leave what you don't love
it's that simple
it's how you should live life

we are here to be happy
that's the path we ought to take

we make choices
and mistakes, too
but the right choice is always the one that leaves us feeling good

this is our destiny
to follow our heart
give in to its desires
and let go of what it shuns

your heart is the key
the only way to your destiny

i say again,
follow your heart

What God wants you to be..

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 17:03:33 GMT

He wants you to be happy.
Your purpose is whatever makes you happy.

Many people have misunderstood what is meant by purpose.
They have searched for something so profound as to be Godly in an attempt to live the will of God.
But, they've missed it by a thought.
And, I was one of the "they" i am talking here.

I've always thought my purpose was something God wants me to do.
Something like a profession, an act of goodwill, or a career.
I equated purpose with a reason for living.
And i searched in so many places.
But now i know it's actually very simple.

my purpose is not at all that.
my purpose is to be happy.
this is what God wants me to be.
my purpose is whatever makes me happy.

i finally understand my purpose!
i finally know God's purpose in my life!
Thank you, God.

Good night.

the secret

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 16:38:25 GMT

the secret to happiness
i think it's simply following your heart

against all odds
despite the madness reason tries so hard to make you think you suffer
inspite of everything but what you want

follow your heart

God wants us to be happy
that's all He wants for us
that is our purpose
only that
because He loves us

the spirit of God is in us
and He speaks to us through our hearts
so whatever your heart tells you will make you happy,
by all means, do it

you can try to hide or run away
do you best to avoid it
but you can never deny it
in the end, you'll just get hurt

i know
i have learned

so from today,
i will follow my heart

i know i should
i will

a new day

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 16:14:22 GMT

how do you start a new day?

you wake up in the morning
the sunlight hurts your eyes as you open them
you stretch your arms wide
and then your brain starts to get to work

i was hoping to have a picture of a lovely morning
but as i got to the awakening part, i couldn't help but think of one that is a bit gloomy

in that morning i was trying to imagine,
as soon as i woke up, all the bad feelings i am feeling now came up to me
i felt sad
why?

i think it's unfair.
i wanted a happy morning
not a morning of despair
even my imagination can't let me?

then, i must admit it
i am sad
i am hurt

but i will move on
i don't need time to grieve
have no time to waste

i am free
and i will be happy

still, tomorrow's a new day
i have no more baggages
i can say i am truly free

thank you
thank you
thank you

i am free

a new day

perfect

^^

I AM FREE
and i love it!

things i've learned about love

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 02:35:01 GMT

you love, but sometimes you deny it because you are too scared of rejection or of the responsibility of loving and being loved
you love and you deny it beacuse you cling on an old love and feel guilty for feeling new love
you love and deny it because you are afraid to get hurt by something you know will hurt you
you try to be smart and avoid it
but you'll get hurt anyway

you love but you try not to love because your reason tells you that life and life's choices are not about feelings
feelings make you weak, so you try to be strong
but, you're weak anyway

you try to run away
but come back too soon
and then wish you've run farther when you get there
you regret being on your way back

you love but you reject it beause you are human
and human beings need more than just love
you reject it so you won't hurt
but you're hurt anyway

you love but you lie because the truth seems foolish
you look wiser when you control your feelings instead your feelings control you
but, you're a fool anyway

i think i have learned first-hand that to love is take a risk, always a big chance of losing, but the returns are immense when you win
but people are afraid of losing
and they choose the small things put together over the one big thing

people are selfish; they always play safe like when shopping for shoes
thet keep in their hands the first pair they ilked
and then look around more to compare everything else to it and try to find a better one before buying
but then again, they end up buying the first pair

now, from these things i've learned~
i should keep what i like now and stop looking for a seemingly better deal
or more clearly, stop looking around when i've already found one that i like
it would be useless to go around and find the thing i've always had still the best
unless the price is too high and have not enough money to buy or it's of no use to me at all

if it's just attractive but doesn't fit...
it's not meant for me

like love.
when i feel and the feeling is just a feeling...
and the feeling is not LIFE
it's not meant for me

Love should be LIFE.
And a life with LOVE is LIFE.

What do you think about this statement?
I LOVE YOU BUT I CAN'T.

no regrets

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 06:58:14 GMT

i never want to have regrets. and so far, i think i have lived true to this conviction of mine.
proud to say, if i may, i have learned to forgive myself for every wrong thing i've done and choose to move forward instead of backward.
nobody's perfect. this is one thing i hold onto.
nobody's perfect. we are all imperfect.
and that leaves me with no other option but to forgive every imperfect human being there is in this world--including myself.
im not a saint. in fact, there is no saint on earth. not one.
so, everybody gets angry or upset. and i do, too.
but i forgive. and forget.
i always say, "no regrets"
because i really believe that we would not have done anything that we knew was wrong. except for outright stupidity or bad faith, in which case, we still should not regret but repent, i stand firm.
we can never go back to a situation in which we previously were
looking back, we can never recall the exact feelings that we felt, reasons that we had and concerns that we deemed crucial when we were in the actual situation
so, for me, it's never fair to regret anything
looking back, we may not understand
but if only time travel was possible, we might understand
might, because we'll never really know what can change
nevertheless, the point is to never regret anything done in the past
what should be done is to learn from the mistakes committed
when i say no regrets, i don't mean not being sorry for whatever wrong was done
i mean, don't regret. learn. and try not to do it, again.
admit you were wrong and make things right

REPENT: to recognize the wrong in something you have done and be sorry about it
REGRET: to feel sorry and sad about something previously done or said that now appears wrong, mistaken, or hurtful to others

the difference is recognizing the mistake done, and learning from it
not just being sorry and wishing you have acted differently or chosen otherwise

finally, we should be discerning of what really is wrong and what only appears wrong because others don't approve of it

now, i say, for everything i've done, i don't regret anything
i admit i've done many wrong things in the past
but i learned.
so, no regrets.

the value of waiting

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 05:19:47 GMT

why is it very hard to wait?
why can't anybody have enough patience to wait for the right moment?
or, at least, why do i find it so hard to just wait and do nothing?

i have realized that whether i do something or nothing at all, i wouldn't be able to change anything
i believe that for everything, there is a plan, there is a reason, a purpose that i may not understand from where im looking
but really, if what we do or what we do not do doesn't change anything, why do things happen at all?
why do we even have a choice?
what is the difference between being patient and being a fool?
when do you know when to stop waiting and do something?
when do you know when doing something is not different from just waiting and not doing anything?
im beginning to sound absurd, i know
but can anybody understand me?

setting me free

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 13:43:02 GMT

today, i asked you the question i was too scared to ask.
i did it. with eyes closed, i clicked send.
the song 'better in time' on youtube, it's time i let you go so i can be free
i guess i'm finally letting you go
there's just numbness and a hole in me
what the consequence is, i'll never know until it confronts me
a question in my head: am i ready for the truth?
but.. if i asked the question i must be ready to hear the answer
does it mean im braver?
or only that im weaker?
i don't know
i thought more than twice or thrice
but i just couldn't let the night go by without trying
trying to what?
to face the truth

thought i wanted to fight 'til the end
but if im in this battle alone, isn't it only death im pursuing?

i've always tried to think like how you would think
because i wanted to understand you
gave you every reason my logic spared me
every half truth my conscience granted me
now i think i've exhausted all the possibilities
and left myself with no other option but to accept what is in front of me
but it wasn't that bad at all
because it just pushed me to setting me free

it's time i let you go so i can be free

why do people run away?

Sat, 30 Aug 2008 14:32:01 GMT

today, i want to run away
from you, from him, from everything in here

a new world
beyond that horizon
dark clouds
blue sky
sweet contrast i desire

why do people want to run away?
why do they just run away?
why do i want to run away?
but why can't i?